that I am also
existing physically,
as well as creatively playful,
acting with a free and a clear mind,
loving, emotionally balanced, androgynous

expressive and effective in vocational function,
and inspirationally, aspirationally as well as intellectually guided,
In all, I am a human divine on this beautiful world in this wonderful universe.


I am also none of the above






And so are you
And so is everyone
when they remember
who they are
that they are
and they will”


And so you are not !
You are not any of the above!
As you just are not.







“What do you mean Wim, with the following line, “Just a bit of temporal protraction in becoming aware for most of us?”



That one sentence is more important than any of the others. But I could improve upon it, expand on it.

See, ‘mental awareness’ is like a prism that breaks up light into spectral colours. The glass and the shape of the prism slows light's speed down into temporal coordinates and - at the same time - extends light into spatial coordinates. We interfere with the unknown so that we may know. We actually DO the right side of the equation E=Mcc continuously, we create time. We actually ARE the right side of that equation, we create space. We are the cause AND the result of that equation. We pose the problem and we are the outcome of it.

The myriad results of the myriad of interference we call reality. We create reality by interfering with the unknown.... that is a wonderful miracle. The interferences as patterns interfere with each other. We create creation by reiterating our interferences *endlessly in something* we then call time and space.

Who are we?
Who am I?
Who are you?


I am the one who plays with light and creates you.
You are the one who plays with light and creates me.
I am You
You are Me
We are love.


Who are we but god who plays!
Who are we but gods who play themselves!
Who are we but divine humans who love to play with each other!






Whatever we do to reclaim our original being,
whatever we do to grow into our wholeness,
it all becomes pointless once reclaimed and integrated.


Any method is only important in how much it is a useful tool.
We can bicker about toolkits and toolboxes.
We can argue value, volume, validity and efficacy

which one for whom,
when and for how long,

all that hinders expedient reclamation and integration.


Certain occurrences in the process of reclamation and integration are marked
off as moments of great humorous relief.
Call them milestones,
call them checkpoints,
call them marks or signs,
call the process the way, path, pascha or pesah,
call it:

"wei wu wei's way" or
"who's way is it anyway?' or
"which way was that again?"

we know that the last check point is reached when:

the importance of the method,
the memories of the method,
the madness to the method,
the way or manner in which we did this,
the way or approach we took to get here,

when all that gets undone into a string of uncharged recollections,
when we find that the last checkpoint needs no marking,
when 'that we got here' dissolves in the realization that we are here,

that this is real.
I am,
you are,
this is



No questions asked!
Lifetime guarantee!

You have no reason to hate yourself,
because that hatred comes from someone else
who unfairly blamed you for their hatred.
You have no reason to love yourself,
because you don't need a reason to love yourself.






I am originally from Holland, live in Canada since 1971 on a large island about 300 km long 120 km wide, good mild climate, hardly any snow here. Only about 450.000 inhabitants.

I live in the woods with my family, close to a nice city, Victoria BC, Canada.


God's graces and gifts are immense and so unexpected, even unwarranted. That even a person like myself can participate in the graces of receiving and giving love...!

I learned a lot in my very varied life and the way I learn(ed), I hope, can inspire some people to surrender to K. to trust it. Kundalini is safer than we fear, trust, trust, trust and love... Yes there is still lots to be done, but then, I think I will be busy with cleaning and clearing till the end of my life. I do not pretend more than that...

No negative thinking (not willed anyways) in my case just a lot of honesty, sometimes raw. I am not afraid to falter or accept mistakes or even make some once in a while. I can well accept that I go wrong. I work hard at myself. I trust Kundalini so much that I surrender to it in love, light and truth.






"My thoughts can't help but stray. I keep wandering..." she mused.


"Yes, you have a tendency to wander," I responded.


"I keep w-o-ndering," she rebutted, "I did not say w-a-ndering!

I wonder what's next."


"Hmmm!" I hummed.


"Alright OK? You're right, I keep wandering, I guess." she said.






"Dutch people can be insolent or impudent" sounds just right. But... actually... Dutch people tend to be bold, forward and to the point. They tend to act first and explain talk later. (Has to do with sticking that finger in the dike.) When their straightforwardness gets misinterpreted they will quickly become insolent, impudent, brash and give you a piece of their mind.

They are not necessarily disrespectful, it is just that they feel it is important to cut through artificial respect which is often based on fear, mis-trust or manipulation. A respectable or a respectful person is someone who can take some straightforward honesty and do without beating around the bush.


Otherwise, Dutch people are friendly, fun to drink with (anything), smoke with (hand rolled tobacco or other stuff :-), drink strong coffee with (Douwe Egberts accompanied by a spiced cookie), or have a cool beer with (which they drink from a glass). All this preferably outside on a quaint city or village square.

Dutch people can be helpful to a fault and very generous OR… not at all…. when they see that it will lead nowhere.

Going Dutch is not typical for Dutch people. They also do not speak double Dutch if that means speaking with a forked tongue. What a Dutch treat is? I don't know...

Maybe it came from 'the Dutch threat' that we were at some point in the past to the English. A threat that, when you get to know them Dutchies better, can turn into a real treat. Other wise it may just be a candy ... or...


P.S. "Coming from Holland", "Coming from the Netherlands", " coming from the low countries" or "being Dutch" all mean the same thing.






Whoever wants to know about the following:

(There is a Kundalini connection in the end.)


The Netherlands is often divided into two geographic parts, but I’ll add an extra part to it.

(All this is approximate and somewhat tongue in cheekish.)


1.       The part above the rivers, the Hollanders and Frisians, artists at drinking and trading.

2.       The part below the rivers, the Brabanders and Limburgers, artists at drinking and living.

3.       The 'dividing part', the rivers and the islands between those rivers, artists at drinking, trading and living (when there is still time left.)


The part above the rivers (1) is mostly below sea level.

The part below the rivers(2) is mostly above sea level.

The islands and some rivers (3)are both above and below sea level.


Yes, this is complex, that is what makes Dutch so doubly standard Dutch.


This 'dividing part' is inhabited by Zeelanders and some Hollanders. These Zeelanders and Hollanders were originally called 'Dutch' to be exact. (New Zeeland, New Holland, New York and New Mexico (huh?) were established by them :-)


Now, during the "Golden Age", which is a Dutch as well as an English as well as a Spanish historic period of extreme pride, there were many Dutch 'traders' who travelled the world in their 'pirate' ships. They will not admit to it, but they stole gold from the Spanish, who stole it from the Americas. They also stole it from Africa. They stole gold from the English who also stole it from the Spanish as well as from the Americas. (Very simplistic, you are right.)


Indeed, there is no gold so clean as the hands that handled it.


After their pirate trips, the Dutch would build little temples and churches to atone for their sins. They sinned so much they had to become very religious, also very fundamentalist, dogmatic and rigid. These Dutch were also the thrifty ones, and they had to look sensible and busy to hide the fact that they got their wealth so easily. They had to become very crafty as well.

They invented a new form of sharing. It is now called 'cost sharing', it was originally called 'going Dutch'.


Instead of sharing the goods, they invented sharing the cost. And as you said 'Going Dutch' and 'Dutch Treat' exemplify it. (This is not just typical for the Dutch anymore.)


You see, what you have earned is not hard to share. What you have stolen however, you have to hide and use it thriftily lest others think that you have loads of it so that they can steal it from you.


(1) Sharing the cost is something else than

(2) Sharing the wealth.

In (1) two parties pay,

in (2) only one party pays.

There is a quite difference in benefit distribution as well.

Nice thing is that in (1) your are still sharing… and as sharing is good, god is fooled.


What does this have to do with Kundalini... well it is the sin, guilt, punishment, calculative and atonement aspect...

That has become so engrained in us, amongst other things Kundalini helps us clear that. Replace stolen goods (not your own) with pure energy (self).


P.S. No cost sharing, no goods sharing, just sharing energy



I like what you say about the rope jumping, wasn't that nice on our school yards. Omigosh, our age is showing, shall we just get a little nostalgic?



Yankee <---Jan-Kees=John-Cornelius.

Can also be "Jan & Kee" =John and Katherine (Kate), a typical Dutch married couple.

OK <--- O Kee=Oh Kate! What Jan said when Kee told him to reach for the gold.






I am originally from Delft (Love the place, love everything about Holland, Belgium (Mmmmm). Love Europe, have done long holiday trips all through). Emigrated to Canada in 1971.

Good to find out that the way I write about the Netherlands apparently gives insight rather than that it upsets people. I obviously had to work through a lot. ("Moest met mijzelf in het reine komen.")

I consider Rotterdam, Gouda, Delft and even some of historic Amsterdam as more part of the dividing part. (part 3 see above.) Some parts of Noord Holland are part of the dividing part as well. But all this was a bit 'tongue in cheek' remember? But it allowed me to make a point.

Actually, let me take this more seriously, all the cities and villages that eventually had a stake in the East India and West India Company and other colonial enterprises came from division and had a dividing part to play... Just like all colonialism eventually caused division throughout the world.

The mud and muck in Holland at the moment (Fall 2000)? Rain of course but also... the shortage of labour is really noticeable in the way the streets and side walks are being kept up. Even many little home gardens are more unkempt than they were before. Retired people who could have time to spend in their gardens or even clean the sidewalks, are (still) too stressed to even consider that. I know this is a generalization... But I visit Holland every four years and one sees the changes clearly. Was there last July.